So my little gremlin is being taken to be put down. I had to pull all my pictures off of tumblr because everything else is on my damaged hard drive.. I left her with my mom mid last year (roughly) because she was doing very poorly and only seemed to eat and be happy at my moms place… I think it helped having constant company and to be out of the city.
And I know I make fun of her a lot for being goofy looking and having a silly personality. But she was my childhood. She was my best friend since I was 5 years old. She slept on my bed every night next to me. She laid next to me whenever I was sick or sad. She walked right next to me and never needed a leash, no matter where we went. She was so well behaved and loving and wonderful and she was my life. I felt so heartbroken having to take her to my mom and having to leave her there. But something about where we were just made her worse. And then I felt even worse when I visited my mom, and she’d be up all night crying and howling because she knew I was home, but wasn’t allowed out of her own room because of her incontinence. One night we tried everything to calm her down, but Felix’s sweater was the only thing that worked. She just didnt want to feel alone.
And after all these years I always thought Id be there with her when it was her time to go. Thats all I wanted. I just wanted to make sure she wouldnt go alone, or wondering where I was. And Im really hoping that maybe she just wont think of me. My step dad will be taking her to the vet… I never wanted her to go to the vet either.. she hates vets.. I hope she doesnt die afraid. I hope she doesnt die wondering about me. I dont know what to do right now.